5 Days and counting till I expire?

So 5 more days until my due date...for the most part I feel pretty good. I am tired, swollen and uncomfortable at times. But I have a peace about the baby coming in Gods timing. Being induced with all the other kids has given me some perspective on even just our own need for things being put in our time table according to our schedule. Let's just say that I have learned a lot about Gods perfect time in the last 3 years which is nothing like my own. I still have so much more to grow in that area because still I do not understand at times. 

I want to learn absolute surrender...I have sometimes a habit of trying to hold on to some of the control of timing and other things in my life. I am a planner, I like to have all my ducks in a row. Well that doesn't always work...most of the time it doesn't work in God's big design. But thankfully we have a God who is merciful and understands our mindsets and gently guides us. He is a good, good Shepherd. I want Him to be my guide and the One I lean on. With life's ups and downs I need that guidance to be able to be the wife, mother, daughter, sister and friend He intends me to be. I have so much to learn, so much more patience to gain...man am I weak and little. 

Anyhow, just a few thoughts as the day gets near that I give birth to baby #5! Being here all over again is most definitely very surreal. I want to do best by my family. I want to love them well...

Waiting For His Arrival...

Of course it has been a while once again since I have blogged. So much going on as usual...I am now 36 weeks prego with our second son. This is a day I did not foresee what so ever. I truly thought that my days of bearing children had come to an end even though I know neither of us had a permanent fix for that. I have told my husband all these years that the Lord Himself would have to speak to me loud and clear for me to have another baby. I mean come on...we had done our duty of populating the earth! lol We had given away all that was left of any remnant of  babyhood. Only keeping those few keepsakes for our now big kids.

Well I guess the Lord seen fit for a whole new chapter in our lives. This baby most definetly has a serious story of dreams...myself, two of the kids, a cousin and my sis in law...prophetic happenings and confirmations. I had a friend say to me when we were in the swirl of it all, "who is this baby?!?" That is the very thing that I am more then ecstatic to venture in to. That God would request of us to have this baby boy...it is mind blowing, truly!

In the midst of it all we have been tested, grown closer as a family and have endured the task thus far. The kids are so happy. They tell me all the time that they can not wait to see his face. They all think he is going to look like them and argue about it, which is quite comical. :-) They have helped prepare for him. They have been huge helps to me in things that are more difficult or when mom needs a nap. Kiana has definitely helped even with dinner's here and there. What a blessing! Of course the hubby has been a HUGE help in picking up alot of the slack that I am too tired or unable to do.

So, since this is a many years later and everything leading up to this pregnancy has is different...we are truly doing things unlike all our other births. This time I have researched and learned so much more then I could ever have imagined. This time we will be doing a water birth! :-)

Well, the countdown has truly begun...who know's when the time will arrive for us to welcome Ezekiel Isaac into this world. But we know we eagerly wait his arrival!

The Truth Shall Make You Free

Just wanted to take the time to share a little bit about my journey on this 4-20 evening, coinsidence? I think not. February 10, 2008 I got on a plane to Kansas City, Missouri not knowing what the future held for my life and marriage. The only thing I did know is that I needed to get high. I didn't know how I was going to function without getting high while in KC. I was a mess. I didn't have an understanding of the chaotic life I was living. But God had  a plan...

Jesus says in John 8:32 "And you shall know the truth and the truth shall make you free." You see I didn't know truth. All I had was lie upon lie upon lie. Revelation 19:10 says, "the testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy." The reason I'm sharing this is because just one word shattered a 1,000 lies. Every time I would put that blunt, joint or pipe to my lips I was drowning out the voice of the One who knows and loves me most, my precious Jesus. 1 John 4:19 says, "We love Him because He first loved us." I realized as I sat in the prayer room that I was a son of the Most High and that every pain and every place that hurt so deep in my heart that I tried to cover up and keep from Him was where He was trying to get for years. At that very moment He said to me, you will never turn to any other lover again. I would not go back to getting high off of things that brought me no true, lasting pleasure. Then and there I was sanctified by His truth, His word is His truth. John 17:17.

It's been 3 years, 2 months and 10 days since I smoked weed. I have had more clarity of mind in these past years then I have ever had in those 17 years that I gave myself to the pleasures of this world. I am happier then I have ever been in my life. I love my wife and kids more then ever. Thank you Jesus that I am FREE! He did it for me...He can do it anyone. Ain't no high like the most HIGH!

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June 30th 1955 & June 30th 2001

These are two days that mean very much to me. The 1st is the day my mother Terry Ann Moore was born. If she had not been brought into this world there would be no me. If I was not her daughter, I may not have grown in to what others say is a strong woman. I don't see it too often but hear those words oh so much. The 2nd day is my 2nd born daughter, Keilani Lachelle Echevarria's birth. Many may not know that Keilani being born on my moms bday was no coincidence. It was by my mothers insistence, my agreement and surprisingly my Dr's cooperation. She asked for him to induce me the night of June 29th so I would labor through the night and have her sometime after midnight. This rarely EVER happens. Most Dr's only induce you early in the morning.

1. my mom was persuasive.

2. I believe God had the final say

It wasn't easy losing my mom just after Keilani turned 8 months old, Kiana almost 3 and me 4 months pregnant with Kamia. But God had a plan. I still am so blessed to be able to celebrate her bday. Not many people get the chance to do that. The day of there relative or loved ones birth comes and goes and sometimes with much pain. My mom's birthday comes with a lil bit of sadness because she would only be turning 55 this year, but with GREAT joy cause God blessed me with a treasure beyond measure that is turning 9 today. She means more to me then I could ever have imagined.

I had fears when pregnant with her that I would be unable to love her as much as I loved her older sister Kiana who was already here. But again, God has a plan! Our love for her was no less then her sister. She has her own uniqueness that is unlike either of her sisters or brother. She hears so clearly from the Lord and her hearts desire is to love as deep as she is loved and

beyond. She has such a pure heart one that wants to give a home to the orphans of this world. I pray that I am able to hold her heart and teach her what the Lord desires for her to know. To not scar her but love her as much as she deserves and more.

My mom sacrificed much, was not perfect by any means but had a HUGE heart. On this day, mom I remember you and celebrate through Keilani Lachelle our Lala that you and I both love very much.

Dwelling in the land

So as we come back and get in to the swing of things in the prayer room, in Media and girls starting softball it actually has been quite smooth. But the Lord has really been speaking to us on preparing our hearts and positioning them as well. We have been trying to get more in our word and being diligent in spending more time with Him. Living life as Intercessory/Media Missionaries can be demanding but worth it all none the less. God took me back to a scripture He gave me, Psalm 37:3 Oct 2008 two months after moving to KC. Now He has me and Ismael studying it coming up on 2 years being here. It says: Trust in the Lord and do good. Dwell in the land and feed on His faithfulness. I mean this is what He has called us to do...it's just confirmation for us that God, You alone have called us here.

We want nothing more then to lay our lives at His feet. To do all that He has called us to do. We want to raise our children in the House of the Lord that they will know Him in an intimate way and never depart from His callings on their lives. I am amazed everyday of His faithfulness to us. Even though I have my moments (cause that's life) but I truly am happier then I have ever been in my life. I mean He has healed me from my own hearts pain emotionally from all the loss I have had in my life. Five years ago He healed me physically from suffering from anxiety and intense shoulder and neck muscle pain. He has restored my marriage that at one point was in shambles. We are more in love with each other now then ever before. HE IS SO GOOD!

With all that said, believe in God to do miracles in your life. He is faithful and longs to heal your body and mind. He wants to restore your life back to you. There is nothing like living in freedom. Seek Him 1st always. Faithful is His name. Jesus is sitting at the right hand of the Father forever making intercession for you.

Oh how I love little get aways!

Well we are back from our little mini vacation with my dad and brother. All 8 of us took a 3 hour trip out to Branson, MO which was way fun! We had not just gotten away with the kids and relaxed like that in quite some time. It was such a peaceful time.