I want to learn absolute surrender...I have sometimes a habit of trying to hold on to some of the control of timing and other things in my life. I am a planner, I like to have all my ducks in a row. Well that doesn't always work...most of the time it doesn't work in God's big design. But thankfully we have a God who is merciful and understands our mindsets and gently guides us. He is a good, good Shepherd. I want Him to be my guide and the One I lean on. With life's ups and downs I need that guidance to be able to be the wife, mother, daughter, sister and friend He intends me to be. I have so much to learn, so much more patience to gain...man am I weak and little.
Anyhow, just a few thoughts as the day gets near that I give birth to baby #5! Being here all over again is most definitely very surreal. I want to do best by my family. I want to love them well...